Uni's starting in less than 3 weeks and I honestly don't know what to feel. A new stage in life, a step closer to being an adult, a step closer to realizing my academic goals; and I don't know what to feel. After this is done, I'll be out there competitively trying to look for a job, praying everyday to receive a job offer so that I do not starve to death. I have this constant fear that I'll be jobless and live month to month on the paychecks I receive through my part-time jobs *shudders* please do not let that happen I promise to be a good girl.

Well to be fair, I'm sort of excited because I'm a little bored out by my mundane part-time job. It doesn't challenge my brain and I can feel mushrooms (or mould) growing all over them; but it pays rather decently so I'm not complaining (and I get to go on an island trip!). I guess now I know that I can't do mundane routine tasks.

I'm a little excited for the textbooks, the note-making, the research and the assignments...

except group assignments. Group assignments mean meeting new people and working with them. I'm not ready to socialize just yet. The rest of my Diploma friends have already started a semester earlier or is taking a different course but I guess I still do have friends because I'll still see them around. On the bright side, I get to see my boyfriend more often than I do now so that's also a thing to look forward to (Yes, you are allowed to cringe).

University also means that I get to wear my casual clothes now, YES. I've been dressing up in dresses and pencil skirts for 3 months now and although I love dressing that way, I'm getting fed up on my limited choices. Yet, University keep making me want to buy new clothes because "New Sem, New Me" right.

Let's see how well can I refrain myself from shopping. *tries not to open TaoBao*

A passing day is signifying that I'm one day nearer to the day I'm afraid of- the scholarship application due date. I'm not afraid of the interview (maybe not yet) but that suspense of wondering if I'll be shortlisted. What if I'm in class and can't pick up that call? What if I'm in the toilet? What if I'm at someplace where the reception is bad??

I really want that scholarship to lift some burden off my dad's shoulders.

I guess I'm both excited AND anxious about starting Uni. Let's just hope and pray for the best. Everything will eventually fall in place, right?

Something from the last day of Diploma x