There are past experiences that will carve memories in your head- those that you can't really forget. You might think that you've forgotten about it, but no. Some feelings, some words, some people will remind you of that one thing that you've tried so hard to forget about because it causes you so much misery, hurt and pain.

You try to tell people that it no longer bother you but it's a lie; purpose not to deceive anyone but yourself. You want to believe that it no longer bothers you so that you can let it go, for real this time.

Maybe you found a new happiness that allow you to take your mind off of that sometimes. You thought that you've healed. You're ready to start a new life, turn over a new leaf.

Until something happens.

Something that triggers your past experiences again. Something similar. Things may not turn out the same as before. Yet, it may. You're afraid that the same thing would happen but this time, it will hurt 10 times more than before. You know that this will not only change who you are but it will also break you.

You have too much to lose, this time.

You try to have faith in yourself, in God and in those who you've handed your heart over to. But at some point, you remind yourself that everyone is on their own. They don't care about anyone else but themselves. Everyone has a price for anyone. When the price is right, they will prioritize themselves in the expense of others. So, how can I really trust anyone with my heart?

These insecurities they eat you up alive. They rob you off your happiness and fill you with doubts and fear. The moment you think that you'll do fine and everything will be alright, this old friend called insecurity pays a visit and everything goes to waste.

And then, you're back in square one.